Chapter 20 - VICTOR’S LAST YEAR
Victor’s heart failure worsened at eighty-four.
Not sudden.
Months.
He moved into assisted living near us rather than into my home.
His choice.
“I don’t want your nurses telling me when to sleep.”
“Facility nurses will.”
“I’ll fight strangers.”
Progress limited.
Jamie visited weekly when home.
Luca less often but called.
Brandon handled appointments.
I managed nothing automatically.
Victor had medical proxy named:
Independent attorney plus Brandon as backup.
Not patriarchal succession.
Just planning.
Then one afternoon he asked me:
“Was I a bad father?”
I hated broad questions.
“You were controlling.”
“Not answer.”
“You loved us.”
“Still not answer.”
I thought.
“You gave us security and made us compete for approval. You taught us family mattered and then used family to pressure us. You protected us from outside threats and created inside ones.”
Victor stared.
“That’s bad.”
“Parts.”
“Some?”
“Yes.”
Family phrase.
Then:
“Did I ruin Brandon?”
“No.”
“Jamie?”
“No.”
“Luca?”
“No.”
People are not ruined objects.
They were affected.
They grew.
Then Victor said:
“I wanted you to inherit strength.”
“You handed me fear disguised as responsibility.”
He closed eyes.
“Claire would say that.”
“Yes.”
Then he asked about funeral.
“Open casket?”
“You’re not dead.”
“Plan.”
“Fine.”
“No Mafia nonsense.”
I laughed.
“You are Mafia nonsense.”
“Former.”
He wanted:
Simple service.
No signet-ring ceremony.
No patriarch chair.
No announcement of successor.
Excellent.
Then:
“Who speaks?”
“Whoever wants.”
“Not everyone.”
Good.
Then Jamie brought old emergency phone? We recycled. No.
He brought a small toy phone from childhood maybe? No need.
Instead Victor gave Jamie the original junior chair? It was sold/damaged? We removed special chair earlier maybe not specified. We can say it sat in storage after dinners changed. Victor asked what happened.
“Storage.”
“Burn it.”
“No.”
“Why?”
“It’s furniture.”
Jamie laughed.
We donated it to a local theater prop warehouse.
Perfect.
A chair once used to define bloodline became stage furniture.
Victor liked that.
“Appropriate.”
Then he died in sleep three weeks later.
No mystery.
No last-minute document.
No hidden heir.
No bodyguard whisper.
Just death.
The family was quiet.
Jamie cried.
So did Brandon.
So did I.
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Grief does not require approval of the person’s choices.
It only requires history.
